Sunday, March 30, 2008
just some ultimate random-ness. jon, jon, where're you? i want those farewell pictures(: and who else? jem, jem, know you're really busy now. i want the pictures too:)
oh baby, yea you know me like how i'm. mmmhmm, i like this song so much, makes me smile.
and it's like this flood that when its gates open, everything held inside gushes out. marks and spencers.
sharks.
every music mean something to me.
even that random jazz music. it's so cool, jazz.
imagine listening to that after a day's work and leaning onto the couch, sipping in some rum and you see the beautiful sky, full of stars. omg, how great can that be.
my adorable maid said something funny the other day. she said in her own kind of way, "amanda, your body very nice eh, can be an artiste. can you sing or dance?" lol, how funny can she get? she's such a sweet lady.
ay, please, please, please. that i'l dream a dream.
high is the new black. and short might be my middle name. i might cut my hair like that. and go starbucks for a few hours in a few days. time is not on my side if i were to write up a list. and i'm just to lazy to move, don't feel like going.
thank you! i'm not really making any real sense to anyone. haha, this is amanda's morse code speaking, can i help you?
how i love saturdays.
YJ, I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT FOR THE LETTER AND MORE GOOD TIMES. ARE WE GOING BINTAN:):)
SERIOUSLY, HONESTLY, MY MAMA WANTS ME TO GO THERE. SHE SAID IT'LL BE THE BEST FOR ME. YEAS, I GUESS SO.
I'M GONNA MISS SO MANY LOVES HERE, FAECES. AND TO THOSE BIRD-BRAINS, AH, WHATEVER. LOL.
this island is so retarded with half of my brain filled with nothing.
sometimes, i really don't like the internet, so much and i'd wish my vodafone would crash down on me uh.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
the epitome of me (:
nightmare on elm street or dreams on fluffy cloud number nine.
more like a mash-up of both.
i can't believe k's so brave now. oh well, i hope she's well and fine. what is the past will remain in the past and not be repeated. bet she still looks the same (: for a split moment, i kind of miss her.
but i know i'l be too busy and caught to find a way.
i can't live without tees. and jeans.
gonna work at tts tomorrow, ha.
i'm voiceless but not speechless.
don't, don't, please don't make me break.
and i think starbucks would be appropriate. still tuition seems like another alternative.
no, you can't live to lie, modernity doesn't mean that honesty is outdated.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
these lights so blinding.
makes my mind so grey and light.
like as if i'm gonna fall off.
i'm ill and last night was horrible.
time to wear my 'fake teeth', the transparent babies.
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i'm serious, really serious. can you see my eyebrows converging into one line?
i want to run swim tan beach play run swim tan beach play non-stop. and work. please please please. (:
i'm feeling alot better, thank you. sleeping in and covering myself with the blanket, twelve hours. is pleasure but not that so when you see the sun, so so bright. aww!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
i was meant to tread the water, but i gotten in too deep. oh, no i'l go on and keep the wheel turning. like i've always been, soaking in the sun, washing the water, heating up hot chocolate and breathing in ever so slowly.
it's okay, you can always come back tomorrow. try a slower pace, because we're living in a world too fast, and i can't possibly catch my breathe.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
i want to tan again and again and again and again, dah! why aren't there chairs by the pool for us to lie down and sunbathe? i know hometeamns has them, but i can't possibly go in like that. and for a moment, living in a condo seems like a dream. there's a pool, there's a gym, the grass is always neat and green, no noisy ah bengs and blahblah, there's chairs to suntan on and the windows are so big.
mmmhmm (: nice.
and i love subway and the crews at westmall, they're so nice and friendly.
the world is really small ain't it? you bump into people, unexpected, and then the feeling's like something jolly cause it's been a long long time (rollercoaster time).
"oh i know it's a wonderful world, it's a wonderful world.."
if you don't try, you'l never succeed. your arms are strong enough to pull yourself up and stand on your two feet. oh we're not cats with nine lives, don't be foolish to waste it away.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
what's it like in newyork city?
hey there delilah.
yea, shine down on me mr sun. well we're only 7 miles from the sun. na, na, na.
you don't have to, you don't need to, unless you mean it.
a novel by mark haddon, good. my goodness, i really don't like ants. it's like this disease they're. anyway, looks like the sky is clearing up and the sun is up! and threadless tee sale, we're turning to online shopping.
ohoh, i see the running refrigerator, so cute! oh and the meat is murder. tasty tasty murder, how apt for xy. (: ohoh i high five strangers is kinda funny. ooooooooooo there's the ice cube one, omg. drools. and stupid cupid, ha. i listen to bands that don't exist, hilarious. ohohohohoh, the panda one is on sale!
crap, i don't know which one now. na, na, na.
i need to be literate and learned. books come here(:
Monday, March 17, 2008
time to take a dive into the deep blue ocean.
i pray that there'l be sun tmr. and it'l be so bright and big that i can't open my eyes. cause i want to go for a swim. roar.
how now? yes or no? honestly, i really don't know cause it'l be on a different piece of paper. it's been ages since i touched a book. sharks, i'm going to read right now.
pls pls pls.
i'm pray i'm gonna work for ck tangs and get paid well and feel good every working day. i'm gonna swim and get tanned. and feel jolly forever. i'm gonna shop as well, shop till i'm jolly. and rum. and more get-togethers before there's more goodbyes.
blinding spells, again.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
you don't. and probably never will.
hello, i don't really know you well, that's just about what i want to say, but hope you're okay yea.
i'm going to wish that it'l burn my skin inside out and make me whole. it's a pity to see these kids have disorders that the world can't really help but sit behind the white, clean counters, wearing white clean coats. and all you ignorant, know-it-all, i-don't-care, teenagers and grown-ups. what's wrong with you.
i'm gonna study real hard and earn much, and i'l bring you guys into care. and forget about how much you owe me cause it doesn't matter anymore, you don't anyway. sorry, i'm not a cash machine or a give-it-all machine either.
dear sun, i love you so much. shine on me shine on me.
dear clear blue water, i love you so much too. fill me up fill me up.
VEE:) if i go, i might bump into your long-lost friend. get it get it! you guys can have a reunion dinner. that'l be so nice.
FEE(: cause that's part of your gmail, how's tuition? did you get your ben and jerry?
JAY(: cause the sound of 'j' is spelled out to be jay. how's everything? are you still serious about the deal? i think i prefer the make-you-a-fried mars bars or the make-me-a-teddy-bear deal. hahaha
HOOPS(: thanks so much.
and mygoodness, the world is very small indeed.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
am so NOT burning in the wrath of her hands. yuck.
seems like today, we just sat for our A's. seems like today, we just started work! and seems like today, we've just graduated. suddenly, everyone came buzzing in and asking about the grades and university, and amist of all that, it seems like we can sit down and gulp down rum/hot chocolate/tea and say "cheers to you".
the intensity is like too much, can't deny that! i just couldnt help it because it's really alot. yeas, i'm glad about what i've got myself and what my friends have gotten. i'm really happy about it.
oh well, and then the question of 'where to now' pops up. all the hows and what-nows. it seem hard to stay and yet hard to find the reason to do so. my goodness.
well, take it slow, take it easy. it'l be okay, it'l be fine, even though some things would not change. slow down, breathe easy. i'm not going to fall apart now.
a short break from all the ABCDESUs.
it's not really right, cause it's just an understatement. don't deny it, don't even try to hide it or run away. take it or leave it, don't drift back and forth. i'm so breathless, trying to decipher what you're trying to say. i'm soft and easy, so don't if you don't want it. don't ever lie like that, don't (i hate it). i have a i've-a-soft-spot button and it's permanently turned on.
maroon 5 maroon 5 maroon 5, play you play you, i'll play youuuu(:
and earth wind and fire, boogie woogie, whatever bobby vee, burt sth(: i love you.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
and then they say it's this friday. shit.
what's going to happen?! i have no idea at all.
i just keep on moving, forgot what i was looking for. just give it away, i've let down my tresses. oh if she made any sense when she said don't throw this away. i'm heading into oblivion, the simple truth is falling, falling down.
well i'll trade wisdom back in for innocence. to get away, get away from everything.