Friday, November 30, 2007
it's trash. rubbish.
no, i'll stay. i won't wanna listen to your wicked thoughts. but yes, i want to fly and leave this sick place.
if ever i had a punchbag, i'll probably tear it apart soon after. ROAR. like what chicken said, "damn!" did you even seen those faces?! oh my goodnesss, that's how we look like what sth like that happens.
"how did you give me so much pleasure and cause me so much pain.."
go away! omg. you and your terrible horrible dirty little secrets.
i hope there won't be any more surprises. surprises that'll make me like that. thanks anyway.
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i promise i'll reply the email. (: your daughter is so blessed and lucky to enjoy seaside chalet with her mateys. (:
beulah says: if we can a man on the moon, surely i can win your heart.
i say: oh really? well, try me if you dare believe you have the charm.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
"lies lies lies, yea."
the truth about lying.
washingtonpost says we are liars and lie catchers, and the sport runs from the banal to the breathtaking, from personal to public. it's interesting how contradictory people can behave when kids are taught to be honest and truthful but at the same time, reminded time and again to tell aunty anne that you love her gifts, or you're fine (when you're actually not exactly alright).
so here we are, growing to become good citizens where lies become more and more significant in our lifes. according to washingtonpost (again), we lie to protect others, to control information, to avoid punishment, to escape an awkward social situation, to enhance our egos or to fulfill job descriptions (think spies).
it's terribly fascinating, how many reasons people lie and the methods to lie.
now think about it. in religion, such as the ever-so-controversial Christianity, its faith teaches devotees that lying is a sin. so if lying is a sin, wouldn't the entire world be only filled with sinners (by the possibility of lying and the ways to do so)? one may then ask, how in the world can i not lie when i am constantly face in a peril situation? if lying helps, why not? some may wonder.
i think, and i always think, and still think that, lies are scumbags. i'm a normal citizen, not a spy or detective or secret agent. so there's no need to lie. if the truth hurts, i can't help it. lying hurts even more, because i'm betraying myself and the people whom i lie to. it's called cheating. so why lie? if lying solves the problem, enlighten me. lies don't go down to the bottom most pit, going unknown. it'll resurface and people realise that it's all but lies. so why lie?
why lie to be tangled up in a situation where the future seems bleak because trust has become no more than a waste?
it definitely takes a huge huge amount of energy to trust someone who've lied to you. lying is far worst than betraying.
so dear girl, get a hang of yourself. 'cause lying to me, it ain't gonna help salvage any more relations. for you my bubble has burst and thank you so much for the enlightenment of all your dirty little secrets- lies.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
hey hey pretty pretty boy, whatcha doing now?
tags:
on this sunny island, i shall dip myself in the pool.
just read naz's blog, haha your parents are just like mine! mama just wouldnt let me get hold of an atm card. that's just utterly ridiculous okay? roars.
friction between you and me, whenever i realise something and wish i could just tell you ever so easily? but it's kind of hard 'cause you get upset that stuff like that happen to me. and you behave ever so pissed, at them? i dont know. but i just hope you'll understand where my heart and mind truly lies to. when i mean it, i really do.
the underlying point? i really don't like to break promises and to lie. neither do i approve of people doing to same to me.
apparently, been trying to change my nick on msn, and it appears i change every second, millisecond. it follows my mood, my feelings at that point of time. so tadah!
and..yeas.
yahoo! has been my encyclopedia for ten thousand years.
some daily updates i've found intrigued by, Memphis is the fattest/most unhealthy city! haha. can you imagine? and yahoo! says internet might be 'full' by 2010. of course, by the rate the world is using the Net. hell, yeas.
yahoo! says piglet named Andrex is recovering after being found in trash filled with toilet paper. poor Andrex, he's utterly adorable if you check out yahoo! :)
Friday, November 23, 2007
that's not what i want. i don't care about materials and gadgets and money. what's the use of them when you have nothing in comparison to that? i feel like saying 'oh forget it, i'll just hang out with people i know' cause for the past few months, the feeling of neglect and unjust just became more siginificant. i'm practically insane to scream and shout 'cause it's not use. you promised and apparently, it holds no significance at all. it's how you reacted made me behaved this way. and i bet if you read this, you'll just get mad.
tell me how can i cool down when you're not mine all this while?
"let me dive into the pool and sink to the bottom most level, where there's just me and the dark blue sea."
in a field of purple daisies and blue lavenders, where there's plenty of sunshine and clear blue waters.
in the end, it just does takes time. time for it to grow, time to let loose and be who you're meant to be. time, please wait for me.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
oh my god. so that's why you reacted/acted this way. you're such a faggot. a maggot. my patience is lost while it lasted. to think that i even tried because everyone has to be given a chance and probably i've given one too many chances. i'm not done yet and this isn't the last you're gonne hear from me.
no time to sing lullaby. no time to open the door that leads to the driveway.
as you tumble and fall, slow down, you're getting a little too quick for me to follow.
walking the dog, watching cars pass by and the winds change.
slow down, breathe and you're getting a little too quick.
(:
Sunday, November 11, 2007
"where do we wanna go from here?"
Friday, November 02, 2007
take a moment and look far and wide. do you see them?
those happy faces of children running haphazardly. downstairs. along the corridors. at the playgrounds. in the basketball court.
do you see them?
the bright orange rays of the sun. shinning down on you.
can you feel it?
the warmth at every counter, every station. the passion to serve. to bring a pleasant smile on their faces and make it satisfactory.
do you believe in them?
your dreams and hopes. they're your pivot, because they pave your way through humanity and reality.
how about you? what do you want?
to have a happy family? to have a clean and tidy room? what about those long gone friends? have you given thought about them?
do you see them?
are you happy? because all i want is you to be happy. tell me what can i do to make you feel better.
troubled and uneasy. all i want for christmas is you and for you to be happy. i hope you'll read this. even though i can't say what i feel, can't do what i like, can't be what i want to be, i really want you to know how much i feel.
tell me what you wish, and i'll be the genie in the bottle and grant it for you. you're all i've got and i love you so.
20 odd more days to freedom and a reality looming ahead.