Tuesday, October 31, 2006
i don't know what to say. maybe cause i really don't wanna say it anymore.
cuicui nearly drowned me today man! whoa! powerful thug eh? haha. next time, it'll be my turn. lol. watch out. and it's tiring to play the game, swimming up and down with no goggles. i feel unsecure without them. haha. gotta work hard. people getting cramps here and there. jo and i had cramps. argh. jo vomitted her guava juice. jing seems enjoying. LOL. she ah. haha. and i'm trying to go on. x)
ah..there's so many types of 'broken'. broken mentally. broken sexually. broken financially. broken physically. tsktsk. i'm slightly more than 1 out of the 5. no money. cramp. mind in a state of turbulance, but recovering, with friends around. haha! thank god for friends.
and i have yet to start studying for chinese A levels. crap. tomorrow will have to start. read at least 3 passages. go through them. understand them. wah. friday is coming!! HOW FAST CAN THAT BE?! so many things are happening this friday. chinese. then a talk with 'forgotten-whats-her-name' and most probably parachute band! whoa! i'll be very very tired on saturday.
yes. yes. yes. for fantastic friday. x)
Sunday, October 29, 2006
melvin ang pin chean. see. your name at the start of the entry. never say thank you. haha. he's one smart mind reader and has a sharp sense to things. xD i sound like i'm writing a commentary for him. haha. i'm not a boring person ok? i repeat not a boring person.
and today we became cam whore. more of me. cause people like melvin are already labelled as one la. haha! so now, poor eric, people look for him to take their photos. haha! ok maybe it helps your skills. X) must think positive you see. and the photos taken today are really REALLY very nice! SO COOL!
haha. don't knock out while reading this entry. i know you're gonna close your eyes any sooner. x)
so today, ian was forgiven. i'm so sad you know? ok abit. not so much. but if i were to listen to an emo song right now, maybe i'll feel even more sad! okok. all is well now. don't tell me that again in sucha manner anymore, prease? x)
the worst part of today is all about the survey. i'm not telling. haha. xD
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE. HAVE A HONEY-LEMON-DROPS DREAM. oh man. i tried to take back those phrases, cause it sounds funny. lol.
Friday, October 27, 2006
i caught the prestige! whoa! it was totally awesome! its a MUST-watch for the year. THE PRESTIGE. i feel like watching it again. aww!! lol. the soundtrack has very dark elements to it. haha. maybe i'll buy it. x) OH. sophie should catch this one. prease sophie! haha. say yes, christian bale is so much better looking than hugh jackman. x)
to think i actually slept till 12 today is not surprising to me. cause i'm always like that during holis as such. yes. today is day one of the holidays. and i can't imagine school term has ended already. how fast! year one was a joy. all the laughing and joking around at midst of long hours of lectures and tutorials. never did it occur to me that i had made a mistake for this choice to come this far. yes, i had regretted in some. but nonetheless, the year is coming to an end. when i look back, i want to see the people i love smile. history has its way of repeating itself, you know? you may back to differ, but when it really happens you'll realise the reality of it.
and the point made here is to try to be mature in thinking. blah blah blah. i want this entry to be bloody long. rahrahrah. x) oh. and i really really REALLY feel like going on a window-shopping spree. no spending. just looking. the aunties and uncles will get frustrated with me but i don't care. this is how the industry works, ok?
i didn't go swimming today. because i woke up late and i don't have a swimming partner! LOL. my sis is still in school. val teo won't go swimming, thats from previous experiences. sijie? haha no too i guess. huiling may be busy with home. sophie don't even own a swim suit. HAHA. i told her i'm gonna get her one on her birthday and i'll do it. x) for the sake of getting a pass to the sas pool and not being able to go. lol. the polo people are out shopping today. so its a no. X)
so here lays the longest entry (i hope so), resting in peace. Her beloved shall pay their respects over her so delicate body. And so, as the music plays, the ceremony closes, her life ends here. We turn around, having said our goodbyes, not a drop of tear is shed.
wisest is she who knows she does not know.. indeed it is true.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
001.Real name: amanda
002.Nickname: adnama/ai man de/min
003.Single or taken: single
004.Zodiac sign: snake
005.Male or female: FEmale
006.Elementary Sch: south view.
007.Ipod: yeap.
008.How many buddies on ur list: 201! (wow.)
009.Friendster name: -adnama wol-
010.Hair color: black
012.Hair long or short: short
014.Eye color: dark brown
015.Are u health freak: so-so?
016.Height: 158 i hope.
017.Do u haf a crush on some1: i think so? haha..
018.Do u like urself: of course i like myself.
019.Braces: used to, but they are gone!
020.Think u're awesome: haha.
021.Piercings: ears
022.Tattoo: no.
Your 'Firsts'
024.Surgery: when i was 5? or 6? or 7? forgotten.
025.Piercings: since i was a tiny kid.
026.Best Friend: its hard to qualify a best friend.
027.Award: silver for a breaststroke 50m in sec sch. x)
028.Sport u joined: waterpolo.
029.Pet: dogs. fishes. birds.
030.Vacation: i was too tiny to remember it.
031.Concert: kindergarten?
032.Love: haha. sec4. xD
Favorites
033.Movie: the last samurai.
034.TV show: csi.x)
035.Color: ah? i dont know. haha.
036.Music: JIMMY EAT WORLD. all-american rejects. blahblah.
039.Drink: lemon juice. x)
040.Body part excluding face: uh? lol.
041.Cartoon: blues clues! haha!
042.Piece of clothing: don't get it.
043.Brand of clothing: it doesnt matter.
044.Thing to slp wif: bolster and blanket.
045.School: dunearn and sa.
046.Animal: a pug! it's so cute.. XD
047.Book: sophie's world.
048.Magazine: hardly read them.
049.Im eating: nothing.
050.Im drinking: nothing.
052.Im abt to: bathe!
053.Listening to: nothing.
055.Waiting for: me to finish doing this long thing.
056.Watching: nothing.
057.Wearing: saint tee and 37deg. shorts
Your Future
058.Want Kids: duh?
059.Want to get married: i think the most probable answer is yes.
060.Careers in mind: A vet in a zoo? x)
Which is better with e opposite gender
068.Lips or eyes: eyes.
069.Hugs or kisses: hugs.
070.Shorter or taller: taller la.
072.Romantic or spontaneous: a little of both. xD
073.Nice stomach or arms: why? arms? lol.
074.Sensitive or loud: loud? why?
075.Hookup or relationship: i don't know.
076.Sweet or caring: can i choose both?
077.Troublemaker or hesitant: lol.
Have u ever
078.Kissed a stranger: i don't know.
079.Drank bubbles: uh? guess so.
080.Lost glasses or contacts: er. yes, but i found them eventually.
081.Ran away from home: no way. lol
082.Broken a bone: nope. x)
083.Got an X-ray: yeap, for my braces.
084.Broken someone's heart: i think so?
086.Turned someone down: yea.
087.Cried when someone died: of course.
088.Cried at school: when i was in pri. school
Do u believe in
089.God: of course!
090.Miracles: yeas.
091.Love at first sight: i don't know.
093.Aliens: ah haha.
094.Magic: they cant be real
095.Heaven: yeap.
096.Santa Claus: if i see one, i'll faint.
097.Sex on e first date: this is call one night stand. no. haha.
098.Kissing on e first date: ah?
099.Angels: yeas.
Answer Truthfully
100.Is there someone u want to be with right now: okok. yeas.
Name 20 people u can think of right now.Dont read e question(s) until you've named e 20 people.
1. val teo.
2. melvin
3. hui ling
4. yonghui
5. val see
6. david
7. sijie
8. shawn
9. charlene
10. kahfai
11. yingjing
12. eric
13. jolene
14. kinonn
15. crystal
16. hooper
17. xueyi
18. stanley
19. sylvia
20. raylim
How did u meet #14(kinonn): in hogc. x)
What would u do if u din meet #1(val teo): i'll probably not know everything that is linked to her. haha.
What if #9(charlene) n #20(raylim) dated: think it'll be havoc. lol. clash of ideals.
Would #6(david) n #17(xueyi) make a good couple: HAHA. i think david! won't fall for a tall girl. lol.
Describe #3(huiling): she's tall. she's funny! she's my goody friend. she's half korean.
#8(shawn) attractive: haha! attractive for a guy?
Describe #7(sijie): she's funny. she's hyper. she's talkative? she's emotional?
Know of any #12(eric) family members: yeas! me lo. LOL. just kidding. answer is no.
What would u do if #18(stanley) confesses to u dat he likes u: i'll stun for a few minutes.
What language does #15(crystal) speak: english. and chinese.
Who is #9(charlene) going out with: no one.
How old is #16(hooper): 17 la.
When is e last time u spoke to #13(jolene): last night. text messaging counted?
Who is #2(melvin)'s fav band/singer: ah? i don't know. soft rock. basso nova or er jazz artiste?
Would u ever date #4(yonghui): HAHA!
Would u ever date #1(val teo): AH? i don't have sexual brokeness.
Is #19(sylvia) single: yeas i think so.
What's #10's(kahfai) last name: ho?
Would u ever be in a relationship with #11(yingjing): NO. she's a girl!!
School of #3(huiling): same as me! sajc.
Where does #6(david) live: er. i don't know.
What's ur fav thing abt #5(val see): haha. nice to talk to. funny. haha.
Have u seen #2(melvin) naked: OF COURSE NOT. LOL.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
my entries are getting boring. i'm a boring person. lol. and i wanna eat CHEE CHEONG FUN. and i'm not a boy in a girl's body. LOL. i'm a GIRL who rarely wears skirts (cause i find them hard to move around in) and heels (cause i find them abit aunty-ish except those i wore during prom) haha!
i wanna get over and done with project work. and A levels chinese as well. i wanna go swimming, but i'm down with sore throat and flu. killer viruses. argh... i wanna eat yogurt. i wanna do so many things. but time seem to kill my plans.
anyway, yesterday was kinda hilarious. yesterday was saturday right? yeap. oh my. i'm eating yogurt now. SHO NICE!! oiishi~ haha okok back to the point. pastor's sermon was funny. imagine dogs praise the Lord, jumping around. haha! then during dinner, sth about ian feng being a tomato for the band. totally funny. tomato is suppose to be round and red. so can you imagine someone crappy being that? haha!
anyway, today feels like a saturday. and i feel so dejected from everything. its kinda odd. i realised the reality of leaving my secondary school suddenly cause its been a year since i saw them. my mind is so lag now, and i think the only thing i can do now is to watch, read or listen.
Friday, October 20, 2006
emo music is playing on the hi-fi. so i guess this entry will be kinda emo. x)
project work is sucking my life support. today was kinda like pw day. practically doing pw all the way. and our written reports are like honours thesis haha. cause they are really really THICK.
i'm abit DURIAN,
and a little ALOE VERA too.
'prease' control yourself.
'shtop' it short.
STRAWBERRY, PAPAYA and GUAVA.
a weird combination,
packed in this thick, fibrous, COCONUT head.
as close as ORANGE and APPLE,
accepting this fact.
my SOURSOP and LIME are melting.
"drink it up!" you say.
so i quietly sip it completely dry.
yea, how i wish. when everything is perfect and no worries.
this is an emo entry. check. check. i repeat 'this is an emo entry'. x)
Monday, October 16, 2006
the haze.
it's horrible.
flooding malls
and choking my lungs.
it's terrible.
the haze.
i hate it.
where's town? i can't see.
which's durian? i can't smell.
a state of emergency
not terrorism,
not bird flu.
it's big brother, HAZE.
truly and uniquely, indonesian.
only this one time, and there won't be a second. promise.
God, heal my throat. make them well. AMEN. x)
it's sad. it's relief. it's happy. it's regret. it's admiration. and it's all sum up in a day. SAD. sometimes, things happen for a reason. we feel sad, but look forward after all the rainy-day feeling. cheer up! RELIEF. i got a B for biology. praise the lord! but my chem hit C. i believe i'll do better next time. and i got an A for math! i just love math, but still gotta work hard. HAPPY. everyday is a happy day. lotsa jokes and laughter. can't say today's an exceptional. x) REGRET. if i had put in more effort and concentration, i could have done better. my expectations are very high, i don't deny that. but i believe if people are able to do it, i can too. what god has done to others, he ain't gonna forsake me. ADMIRATION. admire, is the word. just brillant. x)
today is one of the few rare occasions when my entry is SUPER long and SO MANY things happened in a day. even if it's tiny tiny stuff like saying 'hi' and slapping on my back, it's an EVENT for me. don't know if it applies to you. lol.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
i'm so sorry if i couldn't come meet you. or i don't feel like going out with you. i'm so sorry. i can't split myself up into 5. there's only 1 me.
i hope you guys understand. alright?
i promise to treat you to a snickers bar. or you want a mars bar? i'm really gonna do that, i'm not kidding.
and to peculiar you: i don't know why you're acting this way. the moment you bugged me previously really pissed me off. i told you so many times in my messages that i'm busy with promos. can't you just leave me alone for that 2 friggin' weeks?! and what the hell is wrong with you? it's not that i don't care, but i have no FRIGGIN' TIME and there's only 1 FRIGGIN' ME! you're hurting my feelings by saying those words. i don't always say this to people, cause i really hate doing so, but just go, and leave. stay outta my life. i don't need more buggers already.
let me rest and retreat back. i'm tired and jaded. i can't talk but i'll listen. just gimme time, i'll be fine the next time.
Monday, October 09, 2006
i'm scared, when there's no one but me.
when the lights are off,
the boogeyman comes and haunts me.
i'm really scared today.
cause there's no one to hide behind.
he came all the way downstairs.
shutting the door, locking it,
i prayed.
the dead silence i've never felt before.
i hid away from the open windows.
hidding in the dark,
i listened to it.
i hope he doesn't come up.
i hope he isn't a total freak.
i'm scared of the boogeyman.
someone banged the door.
shaking me from my protection in complete darkness.
my thoughts they ran wild.
i'm scared 'cause he's here.
bracing my puny courage,
the door swang open.
little earn walked in with that smile.
the one that instantaneously gives you a hug.
and thats all i needed.
Friday, October 06, 2006
oh my god. today's shopping spree was a SUCCESS! Totally bought a set of clothes to wear out. lol. 3/4 denim pants which i adore. hula&co yellow tee that's oh so comfy to wear! and a black belt with blingbling crown. oooo. LOVE THEM!
Thanks uncle, for cutting the price lower. haha. i really LOVE the jeans. X)
Promos ended officially today and boy, am i happy!
HAHAHA.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
god. you're SO cheesy. worse than me. and it TURNS ME OFF. but god says to be thankful for EVERYTHING.
so, I THANK GOD FOR THAT.
today is communion sunday, and its a sunday when we pray and partake the holy communion. we pray for healing and repent of our sins, then we take the bread and wine that represents god's holy body and blood.
ok, so thats during the service, but after the service..?
some kids saw the remaining biscuits and ribena left on the table, and really want to take them. cause they're pretty tasty. so, alas, the kids sit around the round table and feast on our holy communion like free macdonalds. how ironic. isn't it suppose to be a holy thing? why are they abusively eating ad drinking there?
you gotta be kidding, right? 'tis kinda cracks me up, like "religion what?". but guess, things happen that way cause we are like that.!